When I started this journey last week, a couple of the goals of going public with this usually very intimate and quiet subject was to 1) keep myself accountable and 2) do a little educating about fasting by sharing what I am experiencing. If you joined me in this fast, or if you are a frequent faster, please feel free to comment on issues you have dealt with during your journey. Or, maybe you are struggling and could use encouragement, go ahead a place a comment!
So, this past week actually went by fairly fast. I have mostly stayed with water, but I have added vitamin water, life water or broth once in a while – especially when I am going to be driving. Nothing with calories, but with some added vitamins and minerals. I think that’s important when I need to be alert.
There are some interesting things that have been happening to my body during the last week. It’s been a little hard at times…sometimes my stomach hurts. I also noticed that the emotional eating urges have been probably the most difficult to ignore, though and quite honestly these urges are the ones I need the most help from God on. As part of the whole bringing-my-body-under-submission-thing, I will need to pay attention. Some of the things I have experienced this past week I think are pretty common for anyone fasting. There are the headaches, stomach aches and fatigue. It’s real stuff. That’s why I think it’s really important that when planning a fast it’s important to plan for some down time. Focusing on God is hard to do in the noisy everyday life-stuff, anyway, so two birds and all that.
There’s also some nasty, nasty stuff and not completely knowing my audience, I’ll be careful…but bathroom habits almost gross me out. Just sayin.
Spiritually, I like what is happening. Practicing focusing on God is just that. It takes practice. Lots of practice. We have so much in our world that just keeps us away from being in His presence. When I feel the headaches, the tummy aches and the fatigue, I am trying to use those yucky things to remind me to spend a bit of time in prayer. Do you know how much differently a day goes when you’re praying every few minutes?? It’s really incredible.
I’ve been reminded of our fascination with personal comfort. I think we are obsessed with it, actually. If I am a tad bit hungry, or nervous or sad or overwhelmed, I reach for food. Others reach for other things. When tired, I want sleep. I don’t really want to push through it that much. I think God is teaching me that I need to focus on Him before I try the immediate gratification avenue. Happy-making stuff, I think.
Theme words this week: Purify and Focus.